亲爱的 MsCheong! (Sorry for my cock face :X)Have been texting with her this two days. And I fell in love with her, because of what she say to me. Hahahahaha!
That day, monday, 17.01.11, I went to her and say in serious tone, asking her, can I drop out of SYF. Instead of what she usually say, she give me some time to go think about it. We stood there and did some serious talking for awhile. She say she will be waiting for my text. And then she went up to see choir. I stood there, and think through what she said for awhile, then I went off, then she walk down. I said bye to her, then went home. At night, after thinking for so long, I finally text her. "MsCheong, thank you alot for your patience to me, always. And also the trust you have in me, despite the fact that I abused your trust to me. I always tell myself you're very nice to me, I shouldn't be disappointing you again and again, bnut I rally can't help it): But now, after thinking for so long, I've decided to continue with choir. Just for you and MdmHia. I told MdmHia that I will be back, and I shall be. (:"
"I know you don't want to disappoint us.. This I understand.. The reason why we want you its becasueyou are one of the dedicated ones we respect and will help us along the way.. But if you do not feel happy, we won't be happy too.. I understand all your friends have left.. You ask yourself, do you still have passion? If yes, you shouldn't be bothered by friends.. You are here to learn to read notes and bring the knowledge of music with you even after you graduate... That's what I hope you will learn.. :) I shall not force you to come choir.. I want you to think about it.. Do not feel guilty cos you disappoint us... :) It's your choice.."
I stunned, and start thinking if I should really go back. Eventually, Yeah, I've made up my mind, to go back.
Then I told her about what happened these days that led me to my current behaviour.
Then I was telling her that I failed my maths revision test, badly, and this is what she reply me.
"Sec5 is completely different form sec4.. It's much higher level.. You have yo work harder multiplied by two times!! And my hardworking students last really made it!! You can't slack.. Trust me.. :) work very hard!! Can Promise?? Last week disappointed in you.. But now i understand your problem, and I hope that I can guide you along :)"
Then I told her I felt very demoralised by the test because its a revision test, then I ask her that time is almost wanting to give up on me.
"Yah.. But as a teacher, I won't give up on students.. Even if you are out of school.. :) I will try my best to help.. :) It's dificult in sec5, Ruoyi... But you really must spend alot of time revising and doing your homework... Revise again and practice.. Your mind must be set at the start.. Not half hearted.."
Then we talked on something out of the point, then.....
"Can you promise me one thing?? Feel down and helpless, look for me...If you find there's no place for you to hide, Choir's door always open for you and you can hlpe me look after them and do your work there.. Can get to know new friends!! :) I will be there as well.."
"Yes, I promise. And I alsoo promise to work very hard. (: Actually my sister don't allow me to continue with choir one, and my parents don't really like me going for choir as well.. But, How can I disappoint such a great teacher like you?? (though I once have.) If the sky ever falls, I look for you. Haha. I love you Auntie Cheong! (:"
"Or do you want to concentrate on studies?? You won't disappoint me ah.. I will be disppointed if you don't score well.. Choir is a place for you to feel home.. I really want you to study well..I'm more worried for you in studies rather that you disappoint me in choir.. I don't mind you concentrate on studies and leave choir.. Really... :)"
"No, its okay. After thinking for so long, I thought through already. Choir shouldn't be a burden to me, it should be a place, a time for me to sing out my stress. Look at Trisha and ZhongPing, they join SYF and still did well in their O'level mah. So Can I. (: its a good time for me to learn time management and also cut down on computer.. Haha.... (:"
"Good!! I'm so happy that you have this mentality!! I'm proud to say Ruoyi has matured.. I'm touched.. Remember if you think no one with you, I will be there.. And I believe you're matured enough to decide what's wrong and right.."
And I replied her that I hope I can hold my temptations, and blah blah blah.
"Yes you will be able to!! Can de! I believe.. :) you have choir to release your stress... :)"
*MsCheong. Me.
The last reply includes some other things, but confidential uh, So I don't want to post it here. (:
Don't I just simply love her?♥
How can I ever think that she only wants me to go choir, and doesn't even care how's my studies like how MdmHia always does.
She's caring, pretty, lovable, great advisor, great listening ear, and very patient. (:
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